i wish i could run away
and just never come back,
and never have to worry
about anyone i left behind...
i almost wish i wouldn't be missed.
only so i can leave and breathe without feeling
pulled and dragged back screaming
i could be free.
left to my own devices
here in my reverie.

just make sense of this pain already
i've seen all the sunsets
and not enough rises
too many winters
and not enough light
i want to be able to scream
as loud as my body will allow
i want to be able to fight
as long as my soul will hold on

i've started something
i'll never finish here
this story will never be told,
never unfold,
never write its ending.
i'm an open book
pages torn out
battered and bruised and
left here to burn.

and when will i learn?
when will i learn...
when will they turn
walk away from this wreck
like the ambulance carrying away the victim
they can't help but stare
when will these wings break through my blistered skin
worn from all these years of dying
send this thing flying
just get away!

i've always been afraid of taking
you down with me
like a sinking ship
white flag waving
the water's rushing in
filling me slowly
drowning me evenly, methodically, fill me
teach me
empty me
bury me

god, just release me.
just let this thing go.
i was never there anyway.
just go.

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