My body shakes my hands melt and I find you standing there within my heart but you won't go, no, leaving was never an option for you until you decided you couldn't take any more and you were gone. Feeling just wasn't the same after you broke my heart in two and shoved it back together without a single consideration of my feelings or love or memories and I hate you so much that I love you more why won't you just go.

You make me find the words, somehow, I'm empty and dry and then you're there and I can flow. Like water through my veins I'm never quite the same and all at once I'm stuck forever, trapped and bleeding, I stretch and want out and I can't see. Blind and vacant and oh shit why can't you just stay like you used to? Why have you always made it like this, the back and forth, the black and white and in between get out of me.

You make the words fly out of my mouth and my hands, I can't keep up with my words, I lose myself and I lose you, just leave.

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